What happened to us on July 17th, 2006?
I'm just wondering... If we could be like the way we were. Sitting at
that table... Playing at
the Tree... Chatting away happily... Sharing weal and woe... Some of us just left without a word... Some of us were still believing... That one day we would be back together. Don't you think that it's pretty wierd that it spread like a disease? It all just started with one girl and ended up with two. We know we are like birds stuck in a cage but we weren't alone. Don't you think that we were much happier when we didn't leave? When you left you thought you would be happier, but isn't it the same? You aren't alone during recess and you still feel the same. If you want to be a free bird, you must have friends. If you do not want to ever have one, then stay out of my head.
P. S - This is dedicated to all four of you. Please do not get angry because some of my deep thoughts might be hurtful.
Story's below.
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Sigh sigh sigh. Everyday it was just the same thing. Bread on the table, get ready for school and all that. No friends to even accompany me. Except for my computer. The reason why I am so lonely is because I made the wrong decision. I left the world. I thought I would have no regrets but I really do now. You wouldn't know until you have experienced it. Like what they say, " If the stone falls upon the egg, alas for the egg! If the egg falls upon the stone, alas for the egg! "... Life is truly unfair. Sometimes you feel so blessed... And sometimes you just
die. You feel like it's Doomsday... The end of everything. You never really know. I just happened to hate my life so much but somehow... I just blacked out when I was bathing. I didn't really know what happened but at the same time, I am so happy. Then again, there is a very big hole in my heart. The fork of the Devil pierced through it and now I'm a heartless. I am a subordinate to him now. Having to obey his orders is hard.
My good friend there ( in
nowhere... I obviously don't know where I am... ), Serenity, said that we were sharing the same problems. We were similar in many ways. I thought I was a total heartless but she explained that my heart was still somewhere because I still know how to have feelings for others. Once after I had to fight with Sora, my best boyfriend ( friend who is a boy ), and I gave it to him. I lost but I was happy as I didn't have the courage to fight him. He didn't even recognise me though I gave him so many clues but I guess his loss of memory of me being his best girlfriend ( friend who is a girl ) was another result of the Devil's work. Then, Serenity explained that we weren't complete heartlesses as we still knew how to care for others while she was nursing my wounds. I was surprised because if the Devil had the chance to transform me into a complete heartless, why didn't he? Serenity told me it only happens to unique people who have the potential to care and it was because God defended us.
These feelings rushed through my mind on Thursday, September 21, 2006
